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Do you ever wonder why some things are so hard? Why is life not easy? I was once told that God does not make life easy because if it was, it would not be worth living. I do believe this, life would be boring if there weren't challenges or obstacles.
Sometimes I just worry about the obstacles that I can't see past yet...what will it take? I have had a tough couple of years with the loss of 4 family members. Is it natural to still be hurting so much, and missing someone so much? It just seems like it was all yesterday. I keep believing with the time that passes, the pain will ease.
I don't understand how when I put so much time and effort into something, I still am questionning it and feelin the effects? Why can't I just start fresh, it's a new day, but it seems impossible. I try and try, and get nowhere. I will admit, I do feel alone sometimes, I hope that's okay. I can be surrounded by 20 people, and sometimes I just feel I'm on my own!
I want to find that happiness that everyone talks about, I finally want to be satisfied...how do I find that?
"To hope means to be ready at every moment for that which is not yet born, and yet not become desperate if there is no birth in our lifetime."
-Erich Fromm
I guess that quote explains it all...wait for it. Be patient, and it will happen. I'm going to keep trying.
That's my rant for the day.
Ciao.

Where does the time go?

So, yesterday was X-ring which means it's been a year since I got mine. A lot has happened in a year, passing of relatives, graduation, trips, new job, but how does the time pass by so fast? It just seems so surreal.
Yesterday made me happy that there were 1100 new people join the Xaverian family, but also made me sad. It made me realize how fast university goes by and how much I miss my friends that I have spent the incredible 4 years with. It's so different to still be on campus everyday and not see them, or not go to class and sit beside them. I hate to think that some of us may lose touch, but I guess that's reality. I know there are the friends who I will never lose touch with, but it's so hard to keep in touch with everyone, that's the part I hate. I wish we could have a reunion every weekend. Can you tell I hate goodbyes?
I just want life to slow down! The days seem long at the time, but then when I look back, it flys by so fast, so fast that memories start to fade and I find myself looking through pictures and good times start coming back to mind.
I just wish I could rewind back to 1st year, and live every moment again. Those truly were the best 4 years of my life. So to all 2007 graduates and anyone else who may be reading this....enjoy every last minute you have at StFX. Aside from all the all nighters, lab exams, papers, rough marks, etc, enjoy. Enjoy, because you will look back before you know it and it will all be over! I don't regret a thing here at StFX, I loved every minute of it and believe I made the right choices, I just wish it could have lasted longer!
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. I love StFX but I miss my friends.
Ciao.