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Do you ever wonder why some things are so hard? Why is life not easy? I was once told that God does not make life easy because if it was, it would not be worth living. I do believe this, life would be boring if there weren't challenges or obstacles.
Sometimes I just worry about the obstacles that I can't see past yet...what will it take? I have had a tough couple of years with the loss of 4 family members. Is it natural to still be hurting so much, and missing someone so much? It just seems like it was all yesterday. I keep believing with the time that passes, the pain will ease.
I don't understand how when I put so much time and effort into something, I still am questionning it and feelin the effects? Why can't I just start fresh, it's a new day, but it seems impossible. I try and try, and get nowhere. I will admit, I do feel alone sometimes, I hope that's okay. I can be surrounded by 20 people, and sometimes I just feel I'm on my own!
I want to find that happiness that everyone talks about, I finally want to be satisfied...how do I find that?
"To hope means to be ready at every moment for that which is not yet born, and yet not become desperate if there is no birth in our lifetime."
-Erich Fromm
I guess that quote explains it all...wait for it. Be patient, and it will happen. I'm going to keep trying.
That's my rant for the day.
Ciao.