The end is in sight...

Well it's been a while since I posted last, a long time actually. It's been really busy here, 2nd term is way busier than 1st.
Hard to believe that classes will be ending in 5 weeks, followed by 2 weeks of exams. A part of me cannot wait for the summer, and all the sun and relaxation on the beach that comes with is, but a part of me doesn't want it to end because I will have to say goodbye to people, staff, friends that are graduating, students, etc. I will miss them. I am not great at goodbyes at all, I hate them to be honest!
It just blows my mind that a year of my 2 year contract has almost finished. Where does time go? If anyone knows, please tell me.
As to the next year, it will probably go by even faster, and then what? Uncertainty. There is so much I want to do, so many things I want to experience.
We'll see, we'll see....

So today...was a downer...for different reasons. Then I came across this song...took in a movie with a couple friends and this song drewme in the minute I heard it. I came home, downloaded it, and cried. It's so beautiful and has so much meaning behind the lyrics. I love it, highly reccommend it.
Happy reading, and listening (download it!)
Ciao.

Ordinary Miracle- Sarah McLachlan

It’s not that unusual
When everything is beautiful
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

The sky knows when its time to snow
Don’t need to teach a seed to grow
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Life is like a gift they say
Wrapped up for you everyday
Open up and find a way
To give some of your own

Isn’t it remarkable?
Like every time a rain drop falls
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Birds and winter have their fling
But always make it home by spring
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday
Please don’t throw your dreams away
Hold them close to your heart
Cause we’re all a part
Of the ordinary miracle

Ordinary miracle
Do you want to see a miracle?

It seems so exceptional
That things just work out after all
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Sun comes up and shines so bright
And disappears again at night
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

Waiting on the world to change....

Exactly what I'm doin...waiting on the world to change. What makes me sad in this world is that some people can not accept who others are. Why? Where was it ever written down that people have to be one certain way? If anyone finds it, can you let me know?
I just don't get why some people are so discriminatory towards others. Why should it matter what color you are, what style clothes you wear, whether of not you have tattoos or piercings, sexual preference? Why does all of this matter...what defines a human being, and what makes someone so different for being unique, and who they are?
People are seriously scared to express who they really and truly are, and I don't blame them. Who wants to be pointed, stared, laughed at..who wants to be the center of a joke? I doubt anyone would want to endure that feeling.
What is it going to take for society to accept that every person is different in some way? Maybe some more so than others, but it shouldn't matter.
Can anyone offer advice?
Celebrate Diversity.
"It's hard to beat the system when we're standing in the distance" - John Mayer.
Ciao!

Answers...

Do you ever wonder why some things are so hard? Why is life not easy? I was once told that God does not make life easy because if it was, it would not be worth living. I do believe this, life would be boring if there weren't challenges or obstacles.
Sometimes I just worry about the obstacles that I can't see past yet...what will it take? I have had a tough couple of years with the loss of 4 family members. Is it natural to still be hurting so much, and missing someone so much? It just seems like it was all yesterday. I keep believing with the time that passes, the pain will ease.
I don't understand how when I put so much time and effort into something, I still am questionning it and feelin the effects? Why can't I just start fresh, it's a new day, but it seems impossible. I try and try, and get nowhere. I will admit, I do feel alone sometimes, I hope that's okay. I can be surrounded by 20 people, and sometimes I just feel I'm on my own!
I want to find that happiness that everyone talks about, I finally want to be satisfied...how do I find that?
"To hope means to be ready at every moment for that which is not yet born, and yet not become desperate if there is no birth in our lifetime."
-Erich Fromm
I guess that quote explains it all...wait for it. Be patient, and it will happen. I'm going to keep trying.
That's my rant for the day.
Ciao.

Where does the time go?

So, yesterday was X-ring which means it's been a year since I got mine. A lot has happened in a year, passing of relatives, graduation, trips, new job, but how does the time pass by so fast? It just seems so surreal.
Yesterday made me happy that there were 1100 new people join the Xaverian family, but also made me sad. It made me realize how fast university goes by and how much I miss my friends that I have spent the incredible 4 years with. It's so different to still be on campus everyday and not see them, or not go to class and sit beside them. I hate to think that some of us may lose touch, but I guess that's reality. I know there are the friends who I will never lose touch with, but it's so hard to keep in touch with everyone, that's the part I hate. I wish we could have a reunion every weekend. Can you tell I hate goodbyes?
I just want life to slow down! The days seem long at the time, but then when I look back, it flys by so fast, so fast that memories start to fade and I find myself looking through pictures and good times start coming back to mind.
I just wish I could rewind back to 1st year, and live every moment again. Those truly were the best 4 years of my life. So to all 2007 graduates and anyone else who may be reading this....enjoy every last minute you have at StFX. Aside from all the all nighters, lab exams, papers, rough marks, etc, enjoy. Enjoy, because you will look back before you know it and it will all be over! I don't regret a thing here at StFX, I loved every minute of it and believe I made the right choices, I just wish it could have lasted longer!
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. I love StFX but I miss my friends.
Ciao.

3 weeks to go!

Well, time is ticking...3 weeks till Christmas break! How crazy is that? Time is flying. Students are into their last couple days of classes and then 22 hour quiet hours begin, oh how I've missed thee! It will finally be nice to sleep through a night without being woken up, or just sit in my living room and be able to hear the TV!
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. The best part about it is the staff...I love my staff. They are all so sweet, and just always want to learn. They are doin an amazing job this year, I can't thank them enough, each and every one of them.
But yeah, 3 weeks and I'll be home. I am very excited because I can't wait to just sleep in, and chill out with friends and family, and of course pets! It's the best, friends I haven't seen in a while, chillin, house parties, seeing friends parents, it will be sweet!
Anyways, that's my rant for the day.....
Ciao.

Hope I made the right deicision...

Well, it's been done, I have put my RCMP tests on hold. I think that I've made the right decision. My heart is in travelling and I feel that if I don't do it now, I will never get that chance back. A wise person once said "The career path will be there when you return", she's right :) Thank you, I love you!
I am just a big "what if" person, what if things don't work out and I don't get to travel? What will I do then? Hopefully everything will fall into place and I will be able to go where I truly want to. I want to see so many places, so many cultures, so manty things....so little time. I plan to spend 2 years travelling. The first year based out of Korea, and the next year, 3 months at a time based out of Africa, Thailand, Spain, and Europe. I need to see those places!
Hopefully this will give me more life experience and contribute to my success in the RCMP. It's truly what I want to do, but I need to put that goal on hold for a while and do what my heart is telling me, "Go see the world while you can."
I am excited of the possibility of having a few friends travel with me which would make the experience even better. We'll see what happens:) Either way, it's going to be an amazing experience, wish I could start tomorrow!
That's all for now. Next time I post, I'll be a year older!
Ciao!